Honey I'm 77 and grew up in the same atmosphere. It is almost too much to survive. My answer was reading the Bible and constant prayer. I also went to my school counselor everyday during study hall crying my eyes out. I can also suggest you talking to a pastor at a local church for comfort and support. Life is constant painful situations. Going through this will help you with the next. You'll gain self confidence and pride in yourself you made it through without resorting to illegal drugs or other distructive behaviors. Don't go looking for comfort in other people. Today friends are no help usually. They turn on you when you have a disagreement and it makes matters even worse. Don't marry young like I did because you're hurting so bad. That was the biggest mistake of my life. I was too young to know the importance of my husband's character or anything important about him as all I did was cry and vent about my problems and all he wanted was sex. That wore off fast and the grief that followed was horrible. Good luck and God bless❤️