@dennismm - I posted about my wife passing away at home in mid Feb after 52 terrific years of marriage. It was unexpected and shocked the daylights out of me. It can impact you for a long time. I'm attending an in-person support group meeting once a week and is for those who lost a spouse or companion. After a few weeks of attending the meetings, I have come to realize that grief is not a destination to get to. and it's over. It is a journey. A good friend of mine is in her mid 90's and her husband passed away 23 years ago. In Oct of 2024, she was driving, and a song came on the radio that she and her husband liked, always danced to. She had to pull over and she had a good cry. Same happened to me a week ago. A song by the Carpenters was special to us. So, I guess no surprise 10 years later, you feel like you do. In my opinion, we each need to find out how to best live through this journey. I am still learning. Best to you.