I'm so sorry to hear about what your going through. I think you are saying in your post that you are currently only taking 1 dose of your Ativan at night, correct? But you use to take 3 doses throughout the day, correct? If you have tapered down yourself then I would up your dosage so you don't feel like you're going to have a nervous breakdown. If it is because you don't have enough of the Ativan because of not having a MD to prescribe another month's prescription then this is what I would do. I am not a doctor or nurse just to make that clear. Find a neurologist that will see you ASAP. They know more about the brain and how your brain gets hooked on these types of medications. My story is a long one but in short,I tried for 6months to get off of klonopin after 30yrs and it was a nightmare. My regular Md moved and the other Dr's at the practice did not want to right a script for that drug. So I tried by myself to taper off very slowly. I wasn't sleeping and I had all kinds of withdrawal symptoms. I found a neurologist and he let it be my choice if I wanted to stay on my old dose or try something else first. So I tried something else and it did not work so I went back on the klonopin. I feel normal now. I know it's addictive but I don't think my brain can go without it after 30yrs. I will be praying you get to see a Dr somewhere soon. Take care.