Thank you so much for you reply! Yes, I have been trying to keep my body moving as much as I can but sometimes I feel completely frozen from muscle tightness. My Psychiatrists office messes up my tapering - cut me down from 175 to 37.5 overnight. By the time it was realized I was knee deep in some of the worst physical and mental distress I have ever felt - including my so-called first "manic" episode (I often doubt my bipolar diagnosis). The decision was made to keep me on the 37.5 and ride it out. I started doing every other day last week and it has just been too much. I am back to taking it every day, but switched it up from PM to AM. I hate this drug and what it is doing to me. It saddens me deeply to read all of your stories but makes me feel like I am not crazy, lazy, or weak. I have excellent support and an amazing therapist who is helping me with relaxation tools and support but had to stop doing EMDR because it was too over stimulating. I can't do anything it seems that causes too much because my head goes in a spinning motion. The sun is out today though and that is very helpful. I just want one day when I am not feeling complete rage or utter sadness. I would also love to stop stuttering. It frightens my daughter. I have to stop myself and pick another word to start the sentence. I also touch something cold to give the brain a tap in another direction. I am trying to give this time instead of rushing it, but it feels like a poison I just want to rid myself of.

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