I understand what you're saying. At 61 I was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer and had to undergo external beam radiation as well as 2 years of hormone therapy. Then while I was being treated for Prostate cancer, I was diagnosed with Upper Tract Urothelial Cancer, which is cancer of the Ureter between my bladder and left kidney. I had to go through chemotherapy for that one and i ended up losing one of my kidneys. I have a lot of side effects from both cancers. Last week A CT Scan of my lungs showed a 1 cm spiculated node in my right upper lobe, along with numerous other 4 and 5 mm nodes in the same place. I pray a lot and I truly believe God got me through the 2 prior cancers that I had at virtually the same time. I have Faith HE will get me through the next one. I too get subtle answers to my prayers. Maybe that's how it should be. The Lord has saved me from probable death many times in my past. I believe HE will continue to. God bless you and keep praying to God Almighty.