Palliative care is basically unique and supportive specialized medical care that focuses on providing supports, relief from pain and other symptoms of a serious illness. It also can help you cope with side effects from medical treatments.
If you are part of this type of care there should be options for you to speak with a care manager about what the goals are for you and your care. There is also likely a Chaplain connected or a social worker/ therapist to help support your journey. Have you reached out to anyone about your care and the support available?
Prayers for you!