I’m really happy that I just read all the comments here, it felt like you were all talking about me…the anger, hating myself and feeling like a stranger in my own skin. I had my first cancer diagnosis in 2020 and I slipped into a void mentally, I couldn’t focus on anything and I felt lost, I went through the process of tests and then surgery all the while I was trying to keep up with the latest news about covid, it was an emotional tornado. I later felt my emotions were returning but all I felt was intense anger and anxiety, to make it worse I started having nightmares about my past abuse at the hands of an older brother, I had a total meltdown. I went for therapy and gradually started feeling more in control of myself, it’s a slow process but gradually I got better. I couldn’t resolve the issues that I had with family so I stopped trying and focused on myself, it was the best decision I’ve made in many years, yes it was painful but the emotional abuse was far worse.