I am so sorry to hear about all your difficulties since COVID. That is sure a lot to grapple with! I don't think most people could handle going through all you have gone through, so don't forget to give yourself credit for making it this far. It is understandable to complain about your health when you have so much going on...if friends and family don't respond well, remember that is their problem and a fault on their part, not on yours. And also due to simple lack of understanding, not any ill intent (in most cases). One thing my therapist said that helps a bit is when I have negative thoughts about illness, to accept them as they are, but to them pair it with a positive thought. That has helped realize the small victories and blessings I do still have in a long-COVID life. Keep hanging in there and taking good care of yourself!