No one in this life escapes
trauma and the after effects. It depends on what age it hit. Was it one sudden, or chronic? How intense was it? The after-effects in personality, behavior, and thinking, are not pathology, but rather the system's method of protection. That is why healing can be so difficult. We don't want to give up our protection, even to a good shrink, much less a bad one. This is"diagnosed" as RESISTANCE ie. Your fault.
It is not!
see Donald Kalsched on trauma and dissociation.
Chat groups like this can be more empathetic and less expensive than the mental health providers.
Zen meditation, yoga, exercise, diet, meaning and purpose in Life, friends and family all work, s l o w l y.
SSRIs , the right ones in the correct dosage help.