I feel you. I have had anger associated with my prostate cancer diagnosis (metastatic but currently in remission) and its effect on my overall health and sex life.

I have been in therapy for more than 2 years. My therapist tells me anger isn't a "primary " emotion but is a manifestation of fear, hurt or both. As I have progressed through my therapy and treatments, I believe she is right. After my diagnosis in 2021 I was angry, fearful and shocked. My future plans were upended. My marriage was affected. My previous wonderful sex life was shattered (prostate removed-no ejaculation, no erections, genital shrinkage from the Lupron treatment, loss of Libido from Lupron/no testosterone). So, I understand your anger and relate to it.

But as I continued in therapy I started navigating the 5 stages of grief. I have finally come to some sort of acceptance. My life has changed and will never be as it was. But I can move forward and enjoy many things life has to offer. I had to work through the fear and hurt; it wasn't easy.

I have no answers for you. I hope you find a therapist that works for you and you come to some acceptance and can leave some of the anger behind.

Best wishes to you.