Awwww... Helen, you are so sweet to message me back so fast. You are so kind and thoughtful. It's been dragging on for so long, that I find I just so tired. It's been almost 4 months now since I was told I needed a biopsy and when I finally get to the appt., it will be almost 5 months. I just feel confused by it all. My doctor said to make an appt. in 8 weeks, the secretary said it would be a phone call, then they changed the date of the phone call, then called back and asked me to come into the office in 3 weeks, but still have a phone call 2 weeks later. Weird. I just assume that he wants to talk to me in person because it's cancer, although the secretary said they don't have the results yet. I just find it all confusing but I'm so surprised at how scared I feel. If I look at it calmly, I realize that he never said it would be a phone call, his secretary did. He just said to make an appt. in 8 weeks. So maybe he does see his patients face to face to give the results and is scheduling them around a vacation. The other secretary said he was going away the week of my first appt., so maybe he's away for Easter because the clinic is closed anyway for several days those weeks. And if he doesn't have the results - like the secretary said - then he's not calling me in to give me bad results because he doesn't know them yet. Guess ultimately there is nothing I can do, so I need to somehow find some peace about this. I love your idea of letting nature heal and soothe you. Thanks for listening. I'm still so surprised at how scared and shaky, I am.