@suesam With all these changes I can understand why you are so frightened. I don't know why your appointments were moved around but I wonder as you did whether this is because your oncologist is rearranging the schedule because of his vacation plans. It's very possible he looked at his appointments and patients and made some decisions on who to see before vacation. Also, while your oncologist said it could take 8 weeks to get back the results it's very possible that the results will come back sooner?

I'm going to share something that happened to me in which it was difficult for me not to jump to the worst case scenario. During one of my appointments there was a long delay before I was called in. I'd had a CT that morning and I was very anxious as I'd been having nausea and digestive symptoms and so I thought it was possible that I had a recurrence or a new cancer. I had the thought that the delay was because my nurse practitioner was talking with the doctors about my CT results and that there was something alarming in those results. When I was finally called it turned out that there were no exam rooms available and this was the long delay. My nurse practitioner said "I was ready to see you but there weren't any rooms so we had to wait". My physical exam turned out to show no evidence of disease and the CT showed nothing new. So, I talked myself into this panic because my thoughts went catastrophic on me. It's easy to do.

I'm very much hoping that when you do see your oncologist that in fact the results will be back you can have a good talk with your oncologist. In the meantime can you try this? Write down reasons why your oncologist changed your appointments that are not that worst case scenario - his schedule is changed, he wants to see as many of his patients as possible before he is on vacation, he's a very thorough doctor. These are all ways to challenge your thinking. Then, gently turn your attention back to the present as many times as it takes for you to have those moments of more calm. When I'm feeling very anxious I like to walk out my front door and stand on my front porch. I breathe in the fresh air (assuming it's not bitter cold) and look at the trees and the sky. I do this night or day. Can you guess why I chose the screen name of naturegirl?