Talking really can help. Might you consider joining a grief group? There are some on-line, some in churches, and some in the community, although often attached to hospitals and mortuaries. Was your Mom in hospice or at cancer center? You might find a group that way, or an individual therapist or chaplain. I couldn't move on in my grief by myself--I had a lot of help. Your Mom was so lucky to have you! (And you her). A Mom's love can still help you now--you promised you'd go on, and her love still within you can help. Less than two weeks is a very short amount of time. Take it easy on yourself. I'm very sorry about your loss, and glad you are on Connect.

@yhopefullstill - I posted above my wife passed away 5 weeks ago. Married 52 years. One thing I found out, need to take care of yourself. Need to get enough sleep, eat well and if needed be, let your doctor know of any struggles you're having. Grief is extremely difficult. I have joined a weekly in person support group. Also, several avail online. Sorry to hear about your loss, give it time because that is what it takes to get through this.