I am so sorry for your accident and its aftermath!
I understand completely what feelings you are experiencing as I suffered a TBI and I just marked my 19th year from when it happened yesterday (ST Patrick’s Day).

The good news is there comes a point when your brain and its injury are not the 1st thing you’ll think about when you wake in the morning and the last thing you think about when you lay your head down at night (and every minute in between 😢).

I also lost my smell & taste and the bad news is that they never came back. I think it is the result of whether membranes that control smell & taste have either been stretched and will right themselves one day or they were completely severed which I guess is what happened to mine.

For some strange reason I have found it to be quite fascinating living without smell & taste! I also understand the your love of baking is now compromised and that must feel terrible!

Please feel free to reach out to me if you would like to talk some more about this. I would be honored to answer any questions or just listen to your experience. Perhaps I can help. I do not judge as I have just gotten my certification as a Recovery Support Specialist so I appreciate the need for people to reach out to someone who has “lived experience” with the same issue ❤️