Hi Denise,
That's too bad that you have Bell's Palsy! I had never heard of that and it's caused by stress. How awful for you to have to deal with that along with your husband's death too. I'll say a prayer for you.
That's good that you have an appointment with Social Security to discuss the death benefit. You are right. It is $255. Then you can find out about getting your husband's social security too. It's nice that you have good health insurance.

I wouldn't go to the Pawn shop either if I had to go to a big city. The one I go to is 3 miles from my home. I live in Edmonds Washington which is 15 miles north of Seattle and actually Edmonds is quite safe. The surrounding communities aren't that safe but I don't go into them that much. The Edmonds police arrest the bad guys. The Seattle police are told not to if they can avoid it. If they do arrest someone, the judges let them out the next day! I haven't been to Seattle in about 10 years. I do miss seeing the Space Needle. I remember when it was first built. It is so pretty! It had a revolving restaurant so you could see the mountains and that water while you ate. However, they got rid of the restaurant and turned it into a revolving cocktail lounge. So, now you can revolve while you consume alcohol! I don't think that makes good sense at all!
I don't mind selling our wedding rings. We only wore them when we went somewhere anyway. My husband was always working with electric saws and tools so he didn't wear his then in case of accidents. I couldn't bring myself to clean the toilet with a diamond ring on.

That's great that your two boys help you with things! They must be very nice people! All of my family are dead. (I'm 78.) I have one son but haven't seen him in 28 years. But I have very nice caring neighbors who brought me flowers when they heard that my husband died and many of them have fixed things for me in my house and offered to and won't take any money! I live in a mobile home park and even the park manager has helped me immensely such as fixing a leak in the roof. Plus he told me that if anything else breaks don't call a plumber or anyone like that. Just call me. I thought that was so considerate!
I hope you start to feel better! Maybe the new medicine will work!
It has been corresponding with you also! I'll send you a private message with my first name.
PML