@secretwhitepop it used to work, now it's making me more anxious! This recovery stuff is so weird. I really have no intention of torturing myself but I have no idea what to do next! The NP I see says maybe I am one of those people with a chemical imbalance that needs to be on medication. I'm not sure I believe that or not and I dont want to start something that wont work. I'm so glad you found what works for you! You're going through a rough time with so many changes.