@secretwhitepop I have often thought about the possibility of being bipolar but never wanted to go there because my God, the medicines could be a nightmare to figure out. I've considered borderline personality disorder, I read a book called I hate you, dont leave me, which described me to a T. I had a counselor once tell me that many addicts exhibit symptoms of bpd, that once the addictions are treated the bpd resolves. I have been much less "swingy" in my moods since I started my taper. It's weird. It's almost like the effexor made me have more ups and downs than being on less of it and now none, has. My husband has even said how much calmer I am now that I am off of it. Of course I'm struggling with physical symptoms like I just posted, but overall mood has been more stable. So strange how meds affect us all so differently. I'm sure our circumstances are what affects things mostly. Hope you are doing better.