Again, I’m just so sorry for your loss. I woke up this morning thinking about you and the devastating emotions of early grieving. They come on like waves. I remember reading a line in a poem a few years ago that stuck in my head as a profound truth: “Grief is love, with no place to go.”

There are wonderfully helpful and supportive members in the forum who have been finding solace with each other with the loss of parents, spouses, best friends, pets…oh gosh, loss…it comes in so many forms. We all cope in different ways and often it can help to talk through emotional passages in life with others who are feeling as raw and and hollowed out from loss.
This is a link to the Loss & Grief conversations where you can share your story and feel the uplifting strength of support.
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/loss-grief/
Do you have any siblings or family members or friends nearby so that you’re not alone? Did your mom have friends with whom you can talk?