February would have been our 60th wedding anniversary but he died 5 years ago. There is no quick and easy fix. I suffered, but eventually the worst of the pain went away. And yes, I seriously considered swallowing a bottle of Tylenol. I called our son and he said ”Mom, throw out the bottle. “ I listened to him and did and I still don’t keep any in the house. But the worst of the grief took maybe 2 years to ease.