I forgot to say how I keep my spirits up-that is multifaceted. I keep many things lined up that I can do at any given time. I like to get the Mayo Clinic online forum digest every morning. I like to help where I can. I am also an artist so I go to place is doing artwork. I volunteer And help on an annual event where I prepare a map of movies along a 5K route. I get out every day and walk 15 or 20 minutes in the morning and in the afternoon. I have been on low-dose opioid (Percocet) for 25 years. Sometimes I can’t do the exercise without it. It allows me to get through the challenges. I also am an activist for my own well-being and I bugged the crap out of the doctors if I don’t get a satisfying answer. I asked for tests and labs. I feel horrible because my doctor is so overworked, but she said last week that she really is grateful that I bring all the information to her That I research so we work together collaboratively even if the answers aren’t readily apparent. I have many more things that are personal struggle, but I guess I reconciled when I was a child that my choice is life and to find hope and optimism when I can bring it. I only get depressed when I can’t move through things i.e., when I can’t work on something or when I get blocked from progress. I also learned during menopause 20 years ago that not having enough vitamin D metabolize properly was caused for depression. That symptomatic depression was resolved entirely by having sufficient amount of vitamin D.