@naturegirl5
Good morning Helen,
I also felt very comfortable with the staff who did the simulation. All young enough to be my children. I was telling a friend last night that with this kind of cancer, all modesty and discretion goes in the toilet, literally. It was great to get an idea of what the treatments will be like, the positioning, etc. I am not afraid of the radiation. But what strikes me every time I put a hospital gown on in the cancer centre is that all of a sudden I have a little sense of panic, in that it makes me feel “sick”. I have never considered myself sick through this process, because other than the occasional day, I have felt really, really well! Being in the hospital setting makes me feel differently, and I don’t like it. After the surgery, I didn’t feel sick or like a cancer patient because so many women have hysterectomies. But being on the radiation ward is just different. Yesterday I was just exhausted. I could hardly get off the couch. I think it is just “coming down”. I did take my 2 little toy poodles for a long walk, though, because I know exercise helps physically and mentally. Today I feel a bit more up, so we will see what the day brings. I am looking at the time in Calgary as a little vacation too. The property I rented is very nice with extra bedrooms for friends to visit, and in a good location close to shops and parks. It is a very close drive to the mountains, which we may do as long as I feel well. I know this too shall pass, and then I can just move onwards. Yes, I live in southern Alberta, so totally understand cold weather and blizzards! I appreciate your support so much. I am lucky to have many friends who are so wonderful to me, but it just really helps to converse with somebody who has already been through it. Have a wonderful day! Diana