I feel like I am whining when I tell about these things, but its not to be a victim, it is more like gaining realization of how difficult things actually were. It's also difficult during this process to discern between past events that are magnified and come to the surface, and things that are happening now. It is a confusion of the mind. I listen to the youtube videos particularly of wonderbro, he explains it in a way that makes sense to me and brings me back to reality. Our nerves are exhausted and it is easy to confuse anxiety/depression/exhaustion. Add to that the chemicals from the medications and the changes that are made during this process and its a real sh*t storm. My husband is my rock most of the time, but he can certainly push my buttons! I am sure time will make its natural course and keep moving forward, and we will all move right along with it! Hope everyone has a good day today. I am going to get some natural Vitamin D. Love you all.