I wouldn't say we have a bad marriage but we are very different people. He has always pointed out that I get "too emotional" and reminds me that "not everybody is like you". LoL. As for the rage and crying jags, effexor never has helped with my emotions, I've always had dark nights of the soul at times, even as a child, I feel things very deeply and always wondered if there was a "normal" how would that feel?
He knows all about the withdrawal and what it entails since I went through it before with neurontin and that was far worse than this has been.

Can we every really pinpoint why we feel the way we do or what is causing our emotions? There are so many factors at play and constantly changing, from our physical bodies aging, environment, our parents getting old and needing care, etc. Its hard to say what's the chicken and what's the egg.
I know I've been using the forum to vent. I realize I'm lonely but I must have very high standards for friends. It never fails that I will make a friendship and then the other person starts telling me all kinds of crazy sexual stuff in their marriage or other things I really do not want to hear! Lucky me to hear everyone else secrets, but really?
I'm sitting here watching the bluebirds right now, I'm so grateful that they appear right when I need them. We have many cardinals, hummingbirds, doves, and finches but the beauty of the bluebird never ceases to take my breath away.
Hope everyone has a great day, and thank you for being here.