I am so sorry to read that you lost your wife. I lost my husband three years ago to GBM. He was diagnosed on our 25th anniversary. He died 107 days later. I completely understand what you are going through. It is a struggle to say the least. I cried everyday for the first two years. And I cried a lot. I have very few friends and a couple even ghosted me after he died. I hope you have a good support group because that will help. I had one good friend who listened to me cry and complain everyday. It does get better. I know it is difficult to believe because I didn’t believe it either. I have made a couple of new friends and that has helped some. I still think about him everyday and I still cry at times. It is difficult losing someone you loved for such a long time. I went to some grief support groups after he died. That helped some to know that others were dealing with grief and loss just like I was. I wish you the best.