@texasduchess your story is exactly one of the reasons I decided to jump off at the dosage I was on (about 68 mg). 68 mg is not a dangerous dose to cold turkey from, in my opinion, and the longer I continue counting beads slowly, the longer of a time the effexor is in my system....I will probably experience WD symptoms either way I do it, so best for me to just begin the healing instead of prolonging the agony. I don't know what happened but one day I was just like "enough is enough". It's been a week now, since my last dose. Some vertigo, labile emotions such as rage and crying jags catch me totally by surprise but they pass like a cloud going across the face of the sun.
With that being said, this week has brought its challenges. Including an argument with my husband over my lack of financial contribution and my neediness. This topic rears its ugly head from time to time but this time a trust line was crossed for me when he verbalized the D word. To me once you say this, the marriage dynamic is completely changed forever. It is unfortunate that he has made comments, "in anger", that I will not forget.
I teach a few hours a day online, I have done it for 3 years which is about my limit to stay at one job, and I am over it. I vascillate between gratitude that I can make money from home, to feeling like an absolute prisoner when I am forced to sit and smile and engage no matter what. I have a lot of regular students and I can never, ever have a bad class. I am over it. I took a break from it for a few weeks hoping I would be rejuvenated when I returned but, the opposite happened. Have no desire to do anything to bring money in. At a standstill with all of that.
Then on Wednesday I had a spot on my face that I recognized immediately as MRSA (I have had it several times but not for years) and am now on antibiotics, with the possibility of another dr visit if they have to (GOD FORBID) drain it. Just the thought of this makes me nauseous. Since I could not teach with my face looking this way, I'm having to scramble for documentation so that my cancellations will be "forgiven" and I can keep my job.
Am I the only one who finds irony in this entire situation?
I hope you are all having a great day!