@brightwings Others may be feeling the same. I know I am feeling extremely confused. We are all wired differently. Many are not used to being trapped in bodies that can no longer perform. I tell myself I am still ambulatory and can still drive some. I have done many things in my life. I think of young people who are injured in accidents being trapped in young bodies that can no longer perform. We have much to be grateful for-my input. Can understand how you are feeling punished. Old messages are hard-wired.
You sound plenty busy even though not as busy as you would like to be. Time to rest and collect our thoughts and not go running willie-nillie. It can be challenging.