Jiggers You're heading in the right direction. When they asked me to continue with the chemo, my daughter said "YOU ALMOST KILLED HIM, WHY SHOULD HE CONTINUE"?
My feelings are you have to immerse yourself in something that would change your mindset!
That's what I tried to do! I have fished all my Life, but more 'IMPORTANT THINGS got in my way!
Fly fishing like many things takes a High Level of concentration and commitment! But I didn't shirk my duties to make a living1
I was lucky in that regard! I messed them together!
I have been married to the First Women to serve as a National Bank President in the state of New Mexico!
So I understand what your life is like!
But Jiggers there must be something you did as a child or a grownup that you have not done in a while?
Knitting, Gardening, playing a sport, reading, learning a new skill!
Where I live in New Mexico we have a GREAT COMUNITY COLLEGE, that has Special Programs for Seniors or adults called Encore! I have studied religion for most of my life!
It entails one two hour class once a week.
It's a great place to connect with others! Plus it has totally changed my way I look at religion and Life!
Last year I found out I have Dyslexia all of my Life! After being called STUPID i JUST Accepted it! But it put a drive in me to be better!
After 3 college degrees I still had a question as to why I was who I was.
Finally went to the local school district and got tested! They finally answered my question! I had Dyslexia! It has totally changed my life!
My point to all of this is that your health remains in YOU!
Just Dig in and start enjoying the years you have remaining!
Please, don't ever hesitate to contacting me with any questions1
LAST, I WOULD JUST LIKE TO STAY WITH MAYO CONNECT! IT HAS SAVED ME1
YOU ARE GOING THROUGH MANY THINGS WITH YOUR CANCER THAT OTHERS ARE JUST BEGINING!
GIVE THEM HOPE AND BLESSING1
THANKS,
SUNDAANCE aka RB