I am not sure we can ask this question on this site or if you are comfortable with saying, but where are you located? I have been working out of state away from my home off and on for three years while this has been going on. I am returning to my home in Dubuque, Iowa and planning on taking care of myself. Starting a support group is part of that. I am okay with remote meetings, but I envision having retreats or trips to retreats together to help each other deal with the pain. I have a friend that belongs to a support group for mothers who lost their adult children to an overdose. They meet and do fun things together once or twice a year. I would like to develop something like that. My journey with this started on MLK day 2023, I am tired of the up and downs. I do have some contact with both my sons and my only granddaughter, but it must all go through "the gate keepers" which are now the wives. My granddaughter isn't even with her real mother. The step mother is the gate keeper. I think I've learned a lot, but it isn't easy.