@farmboy remember how much your dog cares about you and try to see it from their point of view. You're still the human they love. You're sick right now but you're worthy of being loved. Some days all we can do is wait until tomorrow.

And let your girlfriend help. I know you are struggling and no one likes being seen when they're a complete mess. I had to make the difficult call a few times to have someone talk me through a crisis. All I wanted to do was hide and just crawl in a hole forever. But I reached out. I know you can too - you've made it this far.

Also definitely try to schedule an appointment with a talk therapist who can help with panic attacks. You can learn how to manage them better so it's less horrible.