Please forgive my absence. I believe I had shared my challenges and absence the last time I was posting.
New house, lousy heat and no storm Windows almost took my life again Tuesday night.
Now I will share why I am still alive and NO, I AM NOT CONFUSED.
Tweekers used to live in this house and sell meth out of it. Other tweekers wanted the product inside and almost every single storm window has been busted out.
So the intense cold inside the house caused such hard shivering, even my bones were shivering for weeks.
The only reason I am alive is my husband, who died in 2011 came and held me all night. I could feel him and communicate with him thru thought and touch. I could not see him or hear him.
It was so wonderful to be in his arms again and feel his very well muscled from his 25 years of judo. What a gift that was....to tell me he had gone, he left the front door wide open. But I already knew he was gone as soon as I woke up.
Thankfully, the polar vortex is done. My MS got activated again which caused the cold intolerance. (I also suffer from heat intolerance when my MS is active. Which is now....)
I have been living so successfully with my MS for so many years, I just knew I had to protect myself from extreme cold or heat but couldn't exactly remember what the symptoms were.
Unfortunately, I remember now what the challenges I will face in the future, so I will be a mighty warrior to protect myself.
I am ok, that is the main thing but am so missing my husband of almost 41 years.
I am giving myself more CBD cuz I am soooo emotional. I am worth what ever it takes to go on cuz I have things to do...smiling at you all thru my sadness. Bright Wings

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