I do find it wonderful to have this forum where we can be honest. I agree with Polkagal and Digbb - that it's tiring almost hiding our fears so others can feel better. And thanks for your good thoughts sent my way. I finally see the gynecologist today and I'm glad but also so unsettled not knowing if I'm having a biopsy or just a 'meet and greet'. The unknown is always hard. They're also predicting more snow which makes driving tough but a friend offered to take me if I was nervous driving in the snow. I'll let you know what happened. Thanks.