Dear Denise, I am shocked and saddened to see this post! I can only imagine how you must be reeling after the suddenness of your husband's death. It was so crazy what you were going through but looking back I am sure you could never begrudge how your husband looked for painkillers and lots of cigarettes to get him through his pain. It helped him. Just very surprised to see it was you who posted this today. You found a good place for him to be that was very caring to him and I am sure to you too. God bless you Denise for being so open and vulnerable to the rest of us who are going through our own cancer journeys with our loved ones. For now don't worry about the bills and finances - everyone should be more than understanding. Just eat well now and relax and rest - and let us know how it is going - Susan