That's precisely why I'm trying to stick around, I needed guys like me and I'm trying to focus on the newcomers that need a little bit of light in this dark cloud.

I'm also trying to be very respectful of how I word things because I don't intend to or want to sound boastful. I'm lucky, pure and simple. But who is to say my first PSA test isn't a gut punch that puts me soundly into a second round of treatments with all the side effects after all? This damn thing is just no good from start to finish.