I hear you and I understand. Wanna know what I did today? I am fortunate enough to be able to work from home a couple days per week and I moved my desk straight in front of a window. Sunshine! Exercise! Eat minimal sugars and get decent rest. Depression and anxiety are real, but keep up the good fight. Incidentally, since it seems you don’t mind getting your hands dirty, dig in some soil. With your hands! I remember reading somewhere that there’s mood lifting qualities in touching dirt! Ha! But look, I hope knowing you’re not alone helps if only just a little. Yesterday was a bad day. I could cry if the wind blew. Today was pretty good, but I still broke down. Hoping for a better tomorrow. For us both!