My advice would be to understand that your panic is a perfectly understandable reaction that anyone or even everyone might have to the situation you are faced with. Stage 3 (A or B that's good to know too) CKD is not a good thing but it is not necessarily the end or even anywhere close to it. I went without seeing a western medical doctor for 20 years before I was diagnosed with stage 5 End Stage CKD at the age of 66 years old. I wasn't aware of my kidney disease previous to that end stage diagnosis so you can know that was pretty alarming development for me to deal with. From the emergency room I was given a nephrologist and him immediately want to have me get surgery on my arm to prepare for dialysis. Trough a mutual friend I was introduced to a guy who had been on dialysis and had gotten himself off it by following strict diet changes. I decided that was my plan too. First I sought and a renal dietician and began meeting with her regularly to learn how to plan my diet. Then I began to do my own research, (I worked on the reference desk at one of the country's major universities and I have a Master degree in information and library science so I do know how to research and get good information. So, if ou want encouragement, know that from that first week of stage 5 CKD I never got out of stage 5 but also never went on dialysis for the next 10 years. I lived a pretty good life. I went hiking frequently and even took up the sport of fencing when I hit 70 years old. I want to encourage you to have the courage to fight this thing because you can do it. At the age of 76 years old I finally had to get a transplant and will be be celebrating the completion of my second year post transplant in March. Don't give up the fight. You have a lot of life ahead of you. You can do it!