Hello, I’m so sorry, I can say that because I felt like my lender ended after my first back surgery, early 30’s. I’ve had 4 including fusions. I also have fibromyalgia was DX b4 I ever had back pain. My mother said I always comps about it, but it wasn’t until one morning I woke up and couldn’t me. I’ve been on opioids for pain 12 yrs. It sucks but at least lets me have a quality of life. I was also on tramadol too, and two muscle relaxers, I’ve had anxiety b4 anything . Think around 25 started, Bad attacks pull my car over couldn’t breathe. I also have asthma since I was born. If u saw me u would never know I mask it, I don’t like people to look at me as someone they need to fix. I need another surgery C4 Radiculpathy. I’ve pushed it cuz surgeries are barbaric. I do have faith tho I guess that’s what helps me day to day. Getting up is the worse. Is it a 3 or 8 today. Dr’s, psych, therapist don’t get it. Cuz to be in pain every day and your surgeons tell u it won’t stop. Is hard . Having no energy sucks, no sleep sucks. I just 🙏❤️that my Dr. continues the Dr. othe that was taken, Peopke look at u like your a drug addict…. You have to suck it up. If they knew how strong u have to be . Of course your going to depend on your meds, because they help u live quality of life. I tried a buponorphine, it’s what is taken to help pain or Dr. s that don’t want to listen and help u, it works little causes a rash. Plus after 12 years my dr. Sees what works . Also I’m gonna do surgery. Gotta stand up , don’t let people take advantage because your in pain and it’s unethical immoral . Sorry so long❤️❤️❤️