My grandmother was murdered when I was 19 directly as a result of her doing a good deed for the person who stole her life. My mother died within 30 days of diagnosis of small cell lung cancer. Grief for what they lost. Grief for my own loss. Running in nature focussing on my breath and body moving, then opening up to my surroundings once I was calm, was my salvation. I read so many wonderful books. Focussing heavily on the here and now was my biggest relief (Eckhart Tolle - The Power of Niw). There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about and deeply miss both my grandmother and especially my mother. I can now live more comfortably with the pain and the big hole inside me has gotten much smaller. By living well I honour them ❤️‍🩹🙏❤️‍🩹🙏