Wow, I don't remember early recovery to have been as characterized by Cody Jinks at all! That's not recovery. He's singing about being drunk, having hangovers, being depressed. That's how a drunkard thinks. I don't know him and I wish him the best, but I hope beyond drudging up the "bluesy" life of a drunk, he is doing something concrete to work out his problem rather than just singing the blues. Put all that behind you. Once I "admitted I was powerless over alcohol--that my life had become unmanageable," then "came to believe that a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity," that's when the good stuff started. Going to AA meetings, meeting happy people who are now living wonderful lives. Getting a sponsor. Working the AA 12 Step Program. Going to meetings. Laughing, joking, enjoying life without all that crap that Jinks laments. I found entering AA to be like someone had opened the door for me to enter a fifth dimension. Hopefully you're not getting stuck on the "good old days"...which were anything but good. Go to an AA meeting today, call an AA and talk about your mutual successes. Be happy in your sobriety. What an accomplishment today!