I completely understand your view and feelings. I am in the exact same predicament. The medication has turned on me and I essentially used it as prescribed in good faith. I am barely making it through each day with extreme anxiety, insomnia and depression. I too have been on a plethora of medications in my lifetime for mental health conditions and now almost nothing works at all to help me. I take 1mg of Clonezepam twice per day .5mg and it offers a bit of temporary relief from the agony and I don't want to take more in the remote hope that maybe somehow I will make it through this get off of it over time if my body can adjust to the terrible withdrawals I am having still on the medication. I sadly am practically daily housebound and mostly in bed suffering it out. I won't get into the symptoms as I feel you probably already know them. Appetite is gone and I force myself to eat something each day to stay alive. It's very difficult for me to leave my apartment because of how crippled I am with fear, anxiety and all the rest. If the anxiety was tolerable I'd love to live on being off this Clonezepam. I truly don't know what awaits each day in agony and hold on to some hope to somehow take turns of improving but aside from some miracle I don't see options from the medical health field. If I had the resources I would try Dr. Jacob Witt Doerring's Taper Clinic as he seems to be the most knowledgeable about this issue of withdrawal and the best possible way to treat it slow taper over long term which still involves suffering in most cases and then when off at tiny doses after what could be years of tapering their are still devastating consequences of protracted with syndrome for many which never completely resolves but those who have made it that far report significant improvements and the ability to function to a better extent but not as the same as before taking the medication.
Always praying for us in our suffering🙏