My heart goes out to you for what you endured through your life. I can't imagine what you've gone through.
I do understand that in this produce and consume modern world we live in there is constantly changing mannerisms and behavioral conduct which leads to more and more social isolation and in communication especially with cellphones and computer technologies which one would think would bring better interpersonal communication and unity where to the contrary it's evident that many people's minds from early on now in our days are programmed to disconnect from people face to face and don't listen actively engaged sadly.