I’m just seeing these replies today. It’s amazing to know others are feeling some of the same things as myself. I wish that none of us felt this way but also it’s nice to know I’m not alone. It’s hard to explain to people who don’t experience this how awful it is inside my own mind but also how I can’t seem to pull myself up to find care. I appreciate so much all the people who took time to post to let me know I’m not alone!