@maddiemae5, your situation sounds very complicated. Your partner has been diagnosed with cancer and you are reluctantly in the role of caregiver without full knowledge of the diagnosis or benefit of going to appointments with him. On top of that, it sounds like your relationship is no longer a partnership that either of you want. You have both grown apart and live together with feelings of hostility and lack of trust.

I encourage you to find out if you can talk to someone - for yourself - to manage the complicated situation you are in. Most cancer centers and hospitals have social workers who offer appointments for the caregiver. You can learn more about oncology social workers from this article:

- How an Oncology Social Worker Can Help https://connect.mayoclinic.org/blog/cancer-education-center/newsfeed-post/how-an-oncology-social-worker-can-help/

Another option is FindHelp. FindHelp https://www.findhelp.org/ can help find local low cost and no cost resources including things like social work, support services, care and more.