That was a very good post. As I was reading through I find much if the information is similar to grief. So similar. The intense pain, the feeling you won't get through and then the waves. Some days you feel like your going to make it and you understand and accept your loved one's death. Than BAM a wave hits and knocks you off your feet and drags you under. You feel like you will never get up. You do get up and the water calms. Your safe for a while. The wave comes again and knocks you down. You get up and wait for the next wave. A cycle until you reach acceptance and the waves are less intense and finally you stay in calm water. It all makes sense. It is a type of withdrawal from your grief. One day you realize that you have had your last wave. I pray I get there soon.@