Sounds to me like you’re on track here for someone that took Xanax at a high dose for 17 years. I did the same thing as you’re doing and paused my taper at times. I was in the thick of my taper all during the pandemic UGH! My sister passed away, my dog died, my son’s house burnt down, just to mention a few. The worst things happened while I was tapering! I have an extremely understanding doctor who was all on board and very patiently allowed me to taper completely down to a minute .1 mg of liquid Valium over about a five year period. The dropper lets you draw up tiny amounts of the liquid. It may sound ridiculous but this was absolutely the way I had to taper. I could not have gone any faster. My only advice, as you seem to be doing well, is to taper at your own pace, never go up in dose, and do whatever you need to do to stay as calm as possible. This worked for me, took a long time, but when all was said and done I’ve gotten this monkey off my back for which I’m eternally grateful. BTW I’m 72 years old. One more thing. I found taking Propanolol, a beta blocker, in a really low dose extremely helpful in the last few years of my taper. It was a Godsend. Please let me know how you’re doing. You can message me or let me know here. God Bless, you’re going to be okay, I promise.
Thank you so much ! I feel so much better after your reply . And wow you had a lot happen during your taper..congrats for sticking with it ! That sounds like a lot!
I’ve read about the liquid form. I’m not sure if my psychiatrist would be on board with that he doesn’t force me to get off of the Valium but he thinks I could just stop 1.5 mg like that he told me I was basically on nothing but if I wanted to stay on it for a while while I could he prescribed BuSpar twice a day at a low dose 5 mg twice a day so I’m hoping that that will help but I have been feeling better the last few days. Again I feel like I went pretty slow with the Xanax but once I got on Valium, I think I went a little fast because I went per doctors orders I think even if I can’t get the liquid form, I could just weigh the pill when I get way down on a jewelry scale that’s what I did with the Xanax. It’s kind of tedious, but I could keep cutting away with the pill till I get to the very last crumb. It makes me feel better that there is someone out there that got through it and didn’t have really any side effects getting off probably because you went so slow. Best to listen to our bodies for sure. And I may message you sometime as you said I could I really really really appreciate it thank you thank you you so so much. It’s so wonderful to hear a success story and I can’t wait to get the monkey off my back either lol will be so nice to not be addicted to controlled meds anymore,!
Oh, and thanks for the suggestion of the propanolol. Right now, I’ve just been taking hydroxyzine at night to help me sleep, but I will look into that if the Buspar doesn’t do enough.