Even though my daughter has been with me and heard everything awful the oncologists have offered and is upset herself, she will be going with me to these appointments. Her support has been steadfast. It has been difficult to know if walking away from the first 2 oncologists was the right thing to do because of the additional wait time for treatment. The first two were all about cutting, no further testing. I chose to go back to Mayo Clinic because he was determined to do all testing before surgery. Hence the anxiety.... I have been given worse case scenario and pray that nothing like what they described is going to happen. Once testing is done and I know exactly what I am facing, I feel I will be better able to handle moving forward and figuring out what my new normal will be. Thank you for your kind words.