Hang in there -- Tuesday will come!! If you have friends or family who know what's going on, please keep them close. I can certainly understand why you're scared -- it's a physical nightmare!! That's why I think it's a good idea to have reliable people either with you or nearby. Let them check your thinking -- our thoughts can be very unreliable in this situation, so it isn't wise to act on them without checking with someone(s) first and be very, very gentle with yourself. Remember that your body is trying to detox from a very powerful drug!! I really do recommend epsom salts baths for temporary relief. They help relax you and help ease some of the physical pain. I use Dr. Teal's brand -- the eucalyptus/spearmint and the lavender-scented ones are great and they're easy to find -- Target, Walmart, Walgreen's etc.