Hello All~~
Just to start...I'm 80 going on 55...can you 'did it?'.....I've been though a lot and seen a lot....so hopefully I've gained enough internal wisdom to know that one has to take control of their own lives..as much as possible..as we're the custodians of this 'body'..in this life form...for it's well being as well as it's happiness....

You've all been very expressive in your 'feelings' re: Depo-Provera...here is what I know now about this drug..and you all can research this..I hope you do.

I developed Endometrious in my late teens....horrible ailment....I got married at 17 and very much wanted to start a family..but that was a no go...miscarriages..month long periods....terrible pain....several D and C's....
My GYN suggested Depo....Oh my...I'll never forget how painful those injections were! Like being sliced open with a razor blade is how I remember them....I had many of those painful injections...so I can commiserate with you all about 'feeling' a panicky feeling when having to go through getting the shot.
At 25...after going through many surgeries ..I finally was able to get a partial hysterectomy....I was left with pieces of my overies...bowel resected..this shit was growing everywhere 'in there'....After healing up...I know I'm so fortunate to have not have had a return of this horrible ailment. But...what I was left with..(and here I implore you all to do the research on the drug) was rotting bones!! I was an athlete, veggie, yoga teacher, 5 mile runner, tennis, you name it..I was out there using my wonderful new body!...Did everything right...but I ended up with severe osteoporosis!!! I also took herbs instead of any pharmaceutical for menapausel symptoms and coasted through that....and still ended up with severe osteo. I truly believe that it was the Depo that did me so much harm...that I've been trying my best to rectify as much as possible..all these years....and have a bit...making slow but steady progress since I became aware of my severe bone loss. I'm out of the severe category and am also fortunate to not be in any back pain that I can't alleviate with a hot pack and stretches.
On this thread...I feel that I should also add this in....as so many of you (us) are dealing with a lot of stress issues that coincide with the internal feelings of angst, depression...et al.....
I became a widow 4 years ago...after a wonderful full life with my dear husband. I've been just stuck in grief, sadness, loss....and couldn't find my way out...my mind never stopped punishing me with all the darkest thoughts...re-living the long drawn out suffering of my love....Parkinsons and then adding in Lewy Body dementia..it was a living hell for years until he passed..peace at last.

I didn't want to take a script for depression...my NP advised St. John's Wort....but in the meantime..I discovered the benefits of an ancient herb called "Zembrin"....I researched it's efficacy for my desperate 'woes' and thought it sounded interesting. I ordered a packet of 24 gummies...(ok to laugh here)...called "Happy Mood" made by Force Factors....I chewed up the gummy..and within 10 minutes..or less...I was feeling 'different'...not high or weird...just not seeing the constent horrors in my mind nor hearing the dark voices of remorse and regret....you know..the gang of despair that hang around us like tentacles waiting to take us down...well...they were absent!...For the first time in 4 years..I felt peaceful....I had 'me' back!! I've chewed up a couple more since then when I was starting to 'feel' the darkness creeping in. Same result....
'peacefulness'. I've had the product for about 3 weeks now and have only felt the need to take 4 ..so it's not a daily thing..but an as needed type of recovery to sanity assist.
I've also noticed a couple other mind=bending differences in 'me'....my recall of past events and people has greatly improved....my sense of balance that was a wee bit off..(silly me thinking it was an age thing)...that's also resolved....I can get down on my yoga mat and when I'm done..I can now get up without feeling like I need to 'decompress' before I can totally stand up...that 'feeling' is gone as well!!
I urge you all....Google the clinical trials on Zembrin and see for yourself ....I hope that you feel the benefits of this herb like I have..and maybe even better!!

It would be wonderful to hear from you ..and your journeys and quests for a happier life....we deserve that! Many Blessings to you all....Bunky.....