I can sure relate to how you are feeling! Like you, I had been verbally abused and bullied my entire childhood, by my parents, and three of my siblings! My parents, also, physically beat me, ever since I can remember, when I was a child, and into my young adult years. So, in my adult years, my parents and three of my siblings continued their bullying tactics. They are all self-centered and narcissistic. I am the exact opposite of that temperament! I am mainly one who is kind, loving, and empathetic! So, I have to put up with a lot of negative emotions, from most members of my family! My Mom and Dad passed away a few years ago, and my youngest brother treated me so badly ( he is a hard core drug addict, and a “user” ), that I had to use the ‘disinherited’ routine with him, and his family! They were all mean and nasty to me, and my family, and, after a huge argument, where he called me every name in the book, so to speak, I cut him and his family off completely! All my siblings cut him and his family off too-they were mean to all of my other siblings, and their families, too! Family toxicity can tear families apart, but, it’s important to remember that one does not have to tolerate or put up with bullying from other members, within one’s family! I learned long ago, that feelings are neither right or wrong! Also, I learned, after years of therapy, that I didn’t have to continue, with a toxic family relationship, so I have no regrets that I have not had any contact with my youngest brother, or his family! A hard lesson for me to learn, was that I couldn’t change the negative actions and behavior that I had from my youngest brother, and his family!