@linaita , It sounds like you have some hard days ahead. Please try to take care of yourself. If you can take a break and get out of the house take advantage of that. Hugs.

Excuse me for jumping in but I have been back and forth with cancer and pain meds. I think it's better to let him decide as no one can know how much pain another person is in. That I have learned. For me they make me happy as do cigarettes. So I stick with doing both. And am happy. I didn't know 4 years ago if I would have made it (had a bad Keytruda reaction) and I have developed pain so I just take them and feel better and happier due to that. I mean why not feel good physically like I did in my 30s - maybe feeling this joy will help me continue to live my life in the best way possible. Ditto for cigarettes. People used to grow poppies and get opium in that way - I think in their tea, to ease older age aches and pains. I think a cancer person should not feel guilt about taking medication for pain. Sometimes people say they are afraid to take opiates I say I take them and am not addicted, I take them all the time (LOL). Life is not always easy. I hope the very best for you and your husband. Prayers to you!