Checking in: I am extremely tired. I must have cut down my edibles too much. I am using 16 times less now. I started with 2 whole ones. Now I cut each one into 8 pieces. I only had one tiny piece last night. I will up that again tonight to 2 pieces like I used before. I was up at 430 am. Only 5 hours sleep is not good for my multiple sclerosis.
However today, being my own detective to be in charge of my challenges, I am wondering if my sleep disorder is re-emerging. I will monitor this more.
I know after 26 years of Effexor, being off for only 14 weeks means all my brain wiring previously controlled by Effexor has not yet been rewired. I really am having much more difficulty writing today. Usually I just bang the posts out. This is my 3rd edit.
I am still not aware of any dreams or am not aware of any. Hmmmm, I just realized I have not had any dreams since the nightmares caused by withdrawing in November. That's when I had the mini stroke which I have recovered from. I am so grateful for that.
I am still having problems processing information I hear at times. I sometimes have to make a little video in my head to understand things or write it out to understand things. Now, is this withdrawal or multiple sclerosis? Could be either.
I am so lucky to have the good kind of MS. Mostly it is my balance at times, I used to fall over instantly, often. I have learned to control that using the wedding hesitation step. I can balance my wobbling by keeping my toe pointed down into the earth when I get wobbly. I often have no warning my balance is going. So I have taughtmyself if I feel my balance going, just pause with my toe pointed. I rarely fall now. Other than brain challenges, I am pretty good except for getting too hot. I will lose my life as I know it if I get too hot, sometimes for months. Like I said, I am one of the lucky ones.
The other challenge I notice is still with problem solving. Sometimes, I just can't figure out what I am trying to do. Oh well, THIS TOO SHALL PASS. Smiling as soon as I wrote that. That phrase always gives me hope. I know things won't always be this bad. BRIGHT WINGS

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